Four Years

Dissolving into the darkness I fell in love with,
Devouring the poison as every hour goes by,
Solitude has always been my friend,
And now I watch as my world decays.

I look through the darkness
And my surroundings fade into a familiar place,
Looking for my orange window
I suddenly see two windows with laced curtains.

Looking for my closet with the mirror doors
I instead see a hideously colored wall
With another window and a wooden table,
The mattress underneath becomes a carpeted floor.

Beside me is a naked bed with the frame wrapped around me
Instead of my CDs and lamp,
I feel so cold and I can almost hear faint doors slamming,
Did I just hear my dad?
But I don't live with him anymore...

Falling through darkness I trusted,
Choking on the poison for what seems like days,
Solitude has become my nightmare,
And now I remain in the world I know is reality.